Taking A Load Off...

"Praise the Lord; praise God our Savior! For each day he carries us in his arms." Psalm 68:19

Continuing my journey in the Lord...I have just been taking one step at a time. I've been trying to allow the Lord to lead the way. While I believe I am navigating well through my life these days, there are times that I make the Lord's job harder than it needs to be by trying to take the control away from Him. Sometimes I just think I know better than He does what is good for me.  Well...I'm WRONG about that! LOL

I read the scripture above the other day...and there were two visions that came to me. One vision was of my loving God, carrying me through the difficulties of life; through the decision-making process; through the teenage-rearing seasons (ugh!).  And then...the second vision...of a loving Father who is carrying away His child who is throwing a temper trantrum because she is not getting her way.  Yep! That's ME! Haha!

But seriously, the many ups and downs of my life have warranted my heavenly Father to carry Me. I can do nothing in my own strength and through my own efforts. God is the LORD of my everything and I am doing my best to yield to His will and His calling on my life. I am so grateful for the fact that He is more than willing to carry me so I can take a load off!

An update, since it has been forever since I have written...

I am still single...yep...there you have it. LOL!  That's all...nothing really interesting to report. Life has just carried on. Praise JESUS!

My niece, Aly, is almost 15 years old now and is in high school. Yikes! When you have never birthed a child, and then you suddenly find yourself helping to raise a teenager...well...it's certainly a different world.  Somewhere in this process of helping my Mom to raise this child, I became a "parent". Life is not the same as before. Suddenly I have to keep track of someone. I have to nag and bug and discipline. I even have been initiated into the "you're an idiot adult" and "what do you know?" clubs! Haha! That's hilarious! I remember when I thought the same of my parents. I remember rolling my eyes, just as my niece does to me. I remember being disrespectful to adults. And now it's all happening to ME! The only question I have for other parents is, HOW DO YOU NOT KILL A TEENAGER?? Hahaha!!

Honestly, it is the most difficult thing I've had to do...but I wouldn't trade it. I am accountable to my actions. I am accountable to my word. I am accountable to my LIFE! I don't even speed on the freeways because I'm afraid of getting killed and then where would that leave my niece?? I have to be around for her. This girl doesn't have the luxury of having her biological parents around, so me and my Mom are it! It is ever-present in my mind now. I even have a life insurance policy with her name as a beneficiary! She is my child.

I.AM.A.PARENT. I love my girl with all of my heart. Life is not easy for teenagers these days, so my heart is really invested in helping her to succeed and to know that she is loved and wanted. She has become my life. She can't stand me right now...and that's okay...because I know what comes later. She is most certainly worth the investment. Just as my Lord loves me unconditionally, and will never leave me nor forsake me...that is my devotion to my Aly. And someday she will look back on everything and I KNOW she will be blessed to know the depth of my love.

So, life has changed once again for me.  IT'S A GIRL!

And, God is good.