Well, we have been blessed once again with the gift of a referral to City of Hope. We had an appointment with Jay's oncologist the other day and he told us that he was going to refer us to City of Hope for further consultation. Praise God! Now this came, of course, after Dr. S spoke to Dr. O (our second opinion doc and new best friend) on the phone. I believe that this was the true reason why Dr. S has decided to refer us out. I didn't dare think that I was going to get an admission of guilt for not telling us that the tumor in Jay's lower abdomen was gone! But, whatever his reason, it does not matter...I just see it as the Lord guiding us to where we need to be in order to get the best care possible for my honey. Prayer works people! If you've never tried it...you're missing out!
Anyway, this whole thing seems to have done wonders for my guy. His spirits are really lifted and he has found motivation to be active again. It's amazing that if you tell someone that they are really sick, whether they really are or not, they will become sick! The mind is a strange, mysterious and wonderful thing. It is a gift and an awesome creation from God. But, the Lord can transform the mind so that it is not so heavily influenced.
Greg Laurie, my pastor and a wonderful evangelist once said, "Faith over circumstances; NOT mind over matter." I have it written on a post-it and stuck to my monitor at work because it is a solid reminder to me that it is the Lord alone who created our minds and we are to be focused on what He has done for us. It is my faith and not my mind that gets me through this trial. My circumstances do not make me who I am, it is my faith in a God who walks beside me through it all. He formed my heart and He resides in me. He is my strength.
It's hard to say how I would react if I became very sick, and I pray that it never happens...but my bigger prayer would be that the Lord transform my heart and mind to stay focused on Him being in control over everything in my life, including my body, and surrendering it all to Him.
I am just so grateful to my God that loves us so much. There is no greater peace and joy.
Father, thank You for a love that is never ending. I praise Youfor paving the way for Jay and I to go to City of Hope. I lift the insurance up to you and pray that they would cover it. I know above all else, YOU will provide. I lift our circumstances up to You and pray in FAITH that You will help us to overcome our circumstances. I love You, Lord. In Your son's precious name. Amen.