Sunday, January 27, 2008
Some Good News
God is a God of HOPE! Praise the Lord!
Well, I can tell you that we've had some pretty good news as of Friday. We got our second opinion and the opinions of many doctors from the tumor board conference. Basically, what we found out was that the tumor that was in Jay's lower abdomen in the August scan did not show up in the November scan and pathology report. Can you say "What??" And what this means is, Jay's current doctor missed that because he has been telling us that nothing has changed. The tumor was still there and it wasn't any smaller or bigger so no changes and that meant that the chemo is probably not working. I don't know what Jay's doctor was thinking when he read the report, but he was wrong.
So, our second opinion doc and our new best friend, read the report to us and showed us the scans so we could see what he was talking about. Jay and I were so shocked to hear that and we even challenged him and said, "you need to call Dr. S (I will leave his full name out for privacy reasons) and talk to him!" We wanted clarification and we wanted both doctors to be on the same page. So we will see what Dr. S has to say on Tuesday because we have an appointment with him. What did show up on the November scan is a new lesion in Jay's lower left abdomen. So it is the start of another tumor. It is possible to have that one removed surgically...which Dr. S told us that he would never recommend surgery again because of the severity of the first surgery. And our second opinion doc also told us that there are some other forms of treatment and surgery that Jay could be a possible candidate for and one of the procedures could be a potential cure, yes I said cure, for Jay. That is the first time a doctor has ever mentioned "CURE". You should've seen Jay's eyes light up. What a blessing that was! I haven't seen him like that in so long...well...it was B.C....Before Cancer.
Now, of course, we have become very jaded in this process and although we both were given a considerable amount of hope on Friday, we are both really reluctant to put too much of our hearts into it. But, I have to tell you that it renewed my strength to fight on and I'm pretty sure that it did the same for Jay. It was just what we needed to carry on.
We were beginning to think that we didn't have any other options. We even had "the talk" about not knowing how much time we had left together. That was a toughy. But we now realize that even if there isn't a possibility of a cure, there is still a very good chance that Jay could live for many more years on chemotherapy alone. There are so many combinations that we haven't tried and Jay told me that he wants to keep going until he can't any longer. I have let him know on several occasions that all he needs to do is tell me when he has had enough and I will stop trying to find solutions to this. I won't stop until then.
The bottom line is, the Lord is a God of HOPE and he gave us a miracle on Friday. The gift of more time. The Lord is going to work miracles in our lives and I have faith in that and take comfort in it. It may not be miracles by the world's standards, but I know that my God can accomplish so much with very little. I am grateful for the fact that He loves my honey enough to give him more chances to live a full life. We'll see what the Lord has in store for us on this new path that we are journeying. Praise the Lord for the very small word that evokes miracles...HOPE.
Father, I love You and praise You! Thank You for the miracle of hope. I love You and surrender everything I have and everything I am to You. I thank You for the work that You are faithful to complete in me. May You receive the glory. In Jesus precious name. Amen