Thursday, January 15, 2009

A New Year...Same Circumstances

Hello All,

I am sorry that I haven't posted in a while, but I've been concentrating on spending time with Jay and making the most of our holidays together.

We made it to 2009! Wheeww! The sad thing is that nothing has improved for my beloved. Unfortunately, the results from a scan that we just got this week revealed that Jay's tumor is on the move again. As far as I know, it is the same ol' tumor, but it has grown; thus causing some pretty uncomfortable side effects for Jay. The tumor is putting pressure on the nerves at the base of Jay's spinal cord, which in turn is now causing his right kidney to receive a lot of pressure. We made a trip to the ER just a few weeks ago, but it was only through the scan this week that we could actually see what was going on.

That's the bad news...the GOOD news is that with some changes made in medications and learning how to manage the pain better, Jay has been sleeping fairly well, and is reasonably comfortable now. He has managed to regain some of his "perk." Praise the Lord!

No, we don't really know what all of this means. We are just "riding the wave." This is definitely a journey...it's not a brief walk...it's long, arduous and exhausting, but OH SO revealing of our own character. The Lord lives at the core of me, and HE is the One who sees me through the difficulties...but I also give my honey credit for being such a strong, strong man. I admire his courage...even in his vulnerabilities...he is my hero. I don't know that I could be so strong.

In the meantime, we just keep plugging along. February 1st will be the 3 year anniversary since Jay's cancer was discovered. I never imagined that three years later we would still be in the battle of our lives, but this trial has been sifted through the fingers of my Lord and Savior and HE alone can use this disease that was meant for bad and use it for HIS purpose. No, I am not mad at God...nor is Jay. We both understand that this is what happened, but it's what we do with it that makes the difference. We are choosing to allow this disease to make us better people...with the Lord's help.

I will try to post again soon, but Jay has an appointment January 22nd with a urologist to see about relieving the pressure from Jay's kidney so I have no idea what to expect. Know that I love each of you that keep up with us and pray for the best for us. I thank the Lord for each of you. It is nice to know that I am not alone.

Please continue to pray for Jay's comfort, for wisdom for the doctors, and over all that the Lord would continue to meet us where we are at.

Blessings to all.

Jamie

5 comments:

a corgi said...

will keep you in my prayers Jamie; hugs to you and Jay

betty

kelly said...

Jamie, I have been thinking about you and Jay.. I am so glad to hear that he as least able to get some comfort.. I hope you are able to also get some ... like you said just riding the wave.. just thinking of you .. wishing you both better days..
Kelly~

Arlene (AJ) said...

Your Jay is in my every day thoughts and prayers as are you dear.Please check the RFA sites and see if there is something that might be helpful for your Jay and mention it do his doctor. Bless you both.

Trish said...

I'm hoping that Jay is not in too much pain. I'm keeping you both in my prayers.
Take care,
Trish

Tues said...

James - The kids and I continue to pray for Jay every Sunday during Communion. He is always in my thoughts and in my heart, as are you. I pray that the Lord give him the strength to deal with what he is facing and you the strength to be there for him. I love both of you even though I am so far away and cannot help you through these difficult times. I will continue to read your entries so I can be updated on Jay's condition.I Love You Both,

Tues