It has been a few weeks since I have written...we've been on the roller coaster again...Jay has been experiencing a great deal of pain. Possibly a hernia...or the tumors are doing something...we won't know - until tomorrow, that is. Jay is scheduled for surgery tomorrow morning. I don't know what time, but it's first thing in the morning. On top of the pain that Jay has been feeling, a little over a week ago, Jay came down with the stomach flu. Ahhh! That was awful! He got severely dehydrated and we ended up spending three out of the four days of him being sick in urgent care with him receiving IV fluids. It was a rough few days...no sleep for either of us. We were both just exhausted. I don't know that I've actually recovered from that to tell you the truth. I'm still exhausted. But it could just be because of all of the preparation for what is about to happen tomorrow. Tomorrow, our lives will change...no ifs, ands or buts about it...life will change. It will either change because the doctors were able to eradicate the cancer from Jay's abdomen completely...or it will change because they couldn't. Only time will tell. I am trying to wrap my head around the whole thing, but it seems impossible to do. What it comes down to is this...FAITH. I have faith that God led us to City of Hope...in order to provide us with hope. I have faith that no matter what the outcome, God is by our side, and not only that, he is carrying us.
The Lord gave me a scripture this morning and what a gift it is! James 5:15 "And the prayer of faith will save the sick, and the Lord will raise him up."
I will pray in faith that my honey will come through with little to no complications. I will pray in faith that the Lord will reveal His plan to me tomorrow. Healing may or may not come...it is my hope and desire for healing to come and I have faith that the Lord can deliver my husband of this illness...but I will pray for the Lord's will to be done because it is His will that I seek. If His will is for my Jay to be healed; it will be so.
I do not know when I will write again...I am going to be by my guy's side and keep him company. If I feel up to it...I will write again soon. For those of you who are praying for us...please pray for the Lord's will to be done, for peace and comfort for us, and for healing for Jay. We are in need of much prayer.
God Bless You.