Okay, so here it is...the BIG question...
How do you switch gears from preparing for a loved one's death to suddenly looking at the possibility of spending a lifetime with them? I have spent the past several days pondering this very question. The Lord revealed a completely different plan to us a few weeks ago and now I am having trouble making the transition. I have experienced every emotion possible. I have been overwhelmed with joy, felt the sorrow for people who still face the cancer battle, feared the cancer coming back again, and now I'm in the "Now what do I do, Lord?" phase.
A few months ago, Jay and I were making the "bucket list" of things to do before he died. Today, we are faced with the very real possibility of him having to go back to work. I know...I know...what a great dilemma to be in! And it is! Trust me, I count it a blessing. It is just difficult because my head is still spinning and my heart overflowing from the turn of events.
I suppose more time has to go by before I will know which path the Lord has for us next. Until then...I will stay the course until the Lord changes the direction of our path again. I trust that He is capable to be the Leader...I am good with just being the follower.