"Speak to one another with psalms, hymns and spiritual songs. Sing and make music in your heart to the Lord, always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ." (Ephesians 5:19-20 NIV)
The one thing I know for sure is that my Lord, who resides in me, has put a song in my heart. Even when I am disheartened and weary from this battle that Jay and I are in, I am still able to sing a song of praise to the Lord. What an awesome gift.
Now, I don't have a voice like that of Karen, my beloved friend, who sounds like an angel when she sings, but I know that my Lord loves me to sing to Him regardless of how I think I sound. What is important to Him is that I sing...period.
"Worship the LORD with gladness; come before him with joyful songs." (Psalm 100:2 NIV) He is worthy of such praise.
My honey just finished his last radiation treatment today. Praise the Lord! Now we wait. He can't get a PET scan for six weeks because the radiation will remain in his system for a while after today. So, Jay gets a small break. He still has to take oral chemo for a while until his oncologist sees him in a few weeks and makes a determination as to what the next step will be.
For those who are praying for my honey, please pray that there would be no cancer in his system and that there would be no new growth at all in between stopping radiation and starting the IV chemo. It's hard to get excited about stopping the radiation early because we stopped chemo early last year and the cancer came back almost right away. But, I'm not going to give in to my flesh and I am going to trust that the Lord has it in His hands and His will be done.
I am thankful that Jay still has energy and a will to live everyday very actively and not give in to the fatigue. He's a fighter and I'm so proud of him.
I am thankful to the Lord for holding me up through each day, for my wonderful support system at work/church, for my best friend who prays with me and keeps me going, for family who is faithful to check in on us, and for the song that the Lord has placed in my heart. I could not live without any of these. I love you all very much.