Thursday, October 8, 2009

Surprises...

Today was a very up and down day emotionally. Early on today I found myself being very focused (something that seems to evade me most of the time now) and my productivity level skyrocketed...until after lunch.
I've been rearranging my desk at work and trying to get the "flow" of my desk to better serve me in my work day. As I was cleaning out a drawer, I found what I thought were a stack of blank cards for me to give out to people on special occasions...nope...this is what I found on top of the stack...






Seeing this card again knocked the wind out of me. GOSH, it made me miss him more...but I am so blessed to have found it...just a reminder of how much we really loved each other. Of course I cried and broke down for a moment, but the Lord is faithful to give me strength not to be devastated when I find special things like this, and instead, rejoice that my husband and I WILL see each other again in our eternity.
When I read what he wrote in the card, I thought to myself that I may have been his "ray of light" but as I think about where he is at right this moment; he is experiencing the greatest Light of all...our Lord and Savior. There is no greater blessing than to know that my Jay is filled with peace, light and a love overflowing. Praise the Lord.
My heart is happy...

3 comments:

a corgi said...

(((Jamie))) I truly admire you giving glory to the Lord as you work through your grief; he is right there with you, holding you up, giving you strength

betty

staci said...

So early in the morning.. I am already crying.. That is so awsome that you found that card.. what a great reminder of your love.. You are so blessed I cant imagine how it hurts everyday.. but I am so glad that you have the Lord to help you through this!! love you

Arlene (AJ) said...

As hard as it was to first see his words, how blessed you were to have someone who loved you so. With the Lord, you'll get through your grief and know all of us keep you in our special thoughts and prayers dear.